Keep your time at a good pace cuz it doesn't last

No matter how bad things are at any moment, no moment will last forever.Good or bad, time moves on.
Days go by...life goes by quick...missing everyone...making mistakes...finding out truths and lies...life is full of em...someday I'll find that perfect person I can trust and love for eternity...someday...one day I'll find that person...that special person will love me for who I am and not force me to do things I don't like. Someday that person will appear to me...but for now I'll stay forever alone till I find him..i will not find him by making more bf's no...because he's here...waiting for me...spreading his hand out to me.<3

Sometimes...I wish I could be floating in the clouds laying down and looking down to earth and holding hands with that special person that will always be there for me through good and bad. No matter how horrible it is, he would understand me..he would love me.

Today is one of the hardest days of my life. Lost of sadness in the air for me...so many reasons in so little time. I wish I could all stop I wish I could just blink and everything would go to a perfect imagination world,but it isn't possible...there's no such thing..only heaven.


If only people would understand my pain and sorrow...if only they trusted me...if only they gave me another chance...if only they forgive me...if only they stopped hurting me more...if only.

I smile to pretend I'm not hurt so no one is concerned or worried about me...I act like nothings wrong as if everything's perfect...friends leave,come back,betray or love you...but my heart will stay solid through those times...even if my heart breaks I will manage to rebuild my heart again.
Seeing my friends happy with that one person make me happy for them
..but worried if they would last...
Someday I will be happy...happy...happy being with that special someone...
Someday the lies will stop.
Someday the drama will stop.
Someday the hate will stop.
Someday you will have the perfect match for you.
I will take patience.
I will have hope.
No one can hurt me anymore.
I am strong, and I will rise up against the pain and sorrow,because I know I'm better then the people who treated me badly, abandon me,or never trusted me.
I know I made mistakes...and I made some really bad ones too that I will always regret for the rest of my life.
But my life isn't over...because its just barely beginning.
Being alone for the rest of life...sucks. I always wanted a sibling...I always wanted a brother..a brother who would protect me and love as his sister.
But it's too late now.
It's too late.

Nothing can't change the past.nobady can change the way I'm feeling...
But deep down...I got friends. Friends that love me and support me...but sometimes...I just feel like I'm just another peice of grass in a feild...nobody special.
Lots of people in my school say that everyone loves me and no one hates you cause I'm "lovable" ...I'm only lovable because I want to be a good person and not to be someone messed up who makes fun of others. I care bout other people that no one cares for them..because I want people to experience how to feel loved.
Being loves is like a butterfly giving a morning kiss on a red rose, make the red rose wake up and shine as bright as it can be.

My definition of love would be when you always want to be together, and when you're not, you're thinking about being together because you need that person; and without them, your life feels incomplete. It's when you trust the other with your life; and when you would do anything for each other. When you love someone, you want nothing more than for them to be really happy- no matter what it takes because their needs come before your own. It's when they're the last thing you think about before you go to sleep- and when they're the first thing you think of when you wake up. Love is giving someone the power to destroy you, and trusting them not to. When they're with you, your heart races. When they touch you, you get butterflies in your stomach. When you kiss, it just takes your breath away. It's when you can't get the smile off your face; and you feel like you've been touched by an angel. You look down on everybody else because you think that they can't possibly feel what you're feeling. Love is miraculous, and when you find it, don't let it go.

Love is a glorious thing...if you take that love away from someone it's like taking someone's heart out with out a mind to give.
Someday...I will not be fooled.
I will be loved.
Someday...
But right now is not my time.
Till another year or older I will find that one true love. <3

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~Forever Alone till the end.
<3 till i find my special person made just for me.
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Till next time my friends.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.